break

I stopped to take a breath and it lasted for far too long.
I was so mad and so sad....left speechless...left sleepless.
Now words are penetrating my mind again....slowly...and I think I don't have to stop to take a breath, I can do it while I go on...gently.

.....

oziram se po pogoršču čustev
smrdi po zadržani jezi
Izlivih
Nadutosti

V kotu leži prevrnjena steklenica
njen namen je skrit pod kupom zaprašenih cunj
skupaj dražita mojo navidezno hladnost

Pod lijakom se valjajo ostanki včerajšnjega dne
tudi ti smrdijo
se razkrajajo v slutnjo, ki me bo preganjala še tedne

Kje tiči izvor moje nepotešenosti?
V praznem hladilniku ali v prazni postelji?

Suck me dry before I run away

working hours

Dreams may come too soon for me tonight.
Mrazijo me misli, ki brez nadzora prihajajo z večerom in mi ne odpuščajo naslade preteklih dni. Odvzemam sproščenost telesu....hranim ga zvitega na kolenih, naslonjenega na steklo. Silim prste v krčevite izbruhe, naprezam um...naprezam trepalnice.
Zima mi spet ravna lase in kuštra pogled.

wait

Stop me if you can in my intention to demolish all emotions.
I never stopped standing, resentful within, among these careless moments of pure existence....even the rotation of planets ceases to move me from the stubborn point I stand in. But hell is trying to let loose somewhere deep....the one with the devil and fires and everything.
One more breath and I'm on my way.

I

Wrap me round your head and forget I was ever something less than my own.

dpl

Dišim po jutru, ki me je polizalo s svojim mrzlim jezikom in me rešilo spanca. Svet vidim v barvi na pol gnile maline in telo trepeta pod težo minut, ki imajo dolžino sekund in težo dni. Še malo......pa bom mirna in moje besede ne bodo donele v praznem prostoru in se bodo misli prenehale kregati s srcem in bodo moje črke povezane v besede, ki so jih vzgojile moje emocije. In ne analitične knjige. In ne prežvečene teorije.

melt me into oblivion

...bite my lips until they bleed....
....bite my heart until it sings....
..bite my tongue before I say too much..