.

you were never mine to keep.

break

I stopped to take a breath and it lasted for far too long.
I was so mad and so sad....left speechless...left sleepless.
Now words are penetrating my mind again....slowly...and I think I don't have to stop to take a breath, I can do it while I go on...gently.

.....

oziram se po pogoršču čustev
smrdi po zadržani jezi
Izlivih
Nadutosti

V kotu leži prevrnjena steklenica
njen namen je skrit pod kupom zaprašenih cunj
skupaj dražita mojo navidezno hladnost

Pod lijakom se valjajo ostanki včerajšnjega dne
tudi ti smrdijo
se razkrajajo v slutnjo, ki me bo preganjala še tedne

Kje tiči izvor moje nepotešenosti?
V praznem hladilniku ali v prazni postelji?

Suck me dry before I run away

working hours

Dreams may come too soon for me tonight.
Mrazijo me misli, ki brez nadzora prihajajo z večerom in mi ne odpuščajo naslade preteklih dni. Odvzemam sproščenost telesu....hranim ga zvitega na kolenih, naslonjenega na steklo. Silim prste v krčevite izbruhe, naprezam um...naprezam trepalnice.
Zima mi spet ravna lase in kuštra pogled.

wait

Stop me if you can in my intention to demolish all emotions.
I never stopped standing, resentful within, among these careless moments of pure existence....even the rotation of planets ceases to move me from the stubborn point I stand in. But hell is trying to let loose somewhere deep....the one with the devil and fires and everything.
One more breath and I'm on my way.

I

Wrap me round your head and forget I was ever something less than my own.

dpl

Dišim po jutru, ki me je polizalo s svojim mrzlim jezikom in me rešilo spanca. Svet vidim v barvi na pol gnile maline in telo trepeta pod težo minut, ki imajo dolžino sekund in težo dni. Še malo......pa bom mirna in moje besede ne bodo donele v praznem prostoru in se bodo misli prenehale kregati s srcem in bodo moje črke povezane v besede, ki so jih vzgojile moje emocije. In ne analitične knjige. In ne prežvečene teorije.